Denne uken blir det et innlegg med tittel: Hvordan reparere narsissistisk mishandling. Og innlegget er et utdrag fra en fagartikkel som opplevdes veldig nyttig å lese, og som inneholdt en øvelse for hvordan reparere narsissistisk mishandling. En øvelse som jeg tenker at kan være nyttig å gjøre for å avslutte og komme seg videre. For mange av mine klienter «sitter fast» og strever med nettopp dette spørsmålet: Hvordan reparere narsissistisk mishandling.
Fagartikkelen som jeg har et utdrag fra i dag, er skrevet av den anerkjente amerikanske gestaltterapeuten Elinor Greenberg, PhD, CGP, som har spesialfelt NPD og andre personlighetsforstyrrelser. Hun har fått publisert mange gode fagartikler innen sitt fagfelt, og flere av dem har jeg utdrag av på bloggen. Les mer om Elinor Greenberg nederst på siden. Lenke til hele fagartikkelen finner du også nederst på siden. Innlegget i dag er på engelsk.
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Hvordan reparere narsissistisk mishandling
Greenberg sier følgende:
I am often asked some version of the following question by people who are newly out of an abusive relationship with a narcissist. They say:
My ex treated me miserably. By the time they kicked me to the curb, I was a total mess. I had lost my self-esteem and most of my self-confidence. It took me weeks to stop crying. I am in therapy and finally able to function again. Clearly, I know that I am better off without this relationship, but I still fantasize about my ex every day and wish that we could be together. Why can’t I just forget this person and move on?
One of the ways to understand what is going on here, is to realize that our minds and our hearts sometimes travel on separate tracks. The key to healing is having them communicate with each other.
Your heart says: I love this person.
Your mind says: It is over. They abused you. You need to get far away and never go back.
This back-and-forth dialogue can go on for a long time without being resolved. These are two entirely different views of the same situation. One view is focused on how good it felt when things were going well and the other is focused on the reality of how everything actually turned out. You do not have to passively wait until something happens to breaks this stalemate. There are things that you can do to speed up your healing and end this emotionally destructive push/pull.
Øvelse for å reparere narsissistisk mishandling
Here is a 4 part exercise that can speed up the process of healing:
Part 1—Write down all your beliefs about your relationship with your narcissistic ex that interfere with you moving on and looking for someone new to love.
Here is my client Laura’s list:
- It was my fault he behaved so badly to me.
- I could have done something that would have made the situation work.
- He is treating his next love better than me because the new person is better than me.
- I will never find anyone again that will make me feel as good and as special.
The above list is “heart based.” The emotional side of Laura longs for what she once had with her ex when things were at its lovely peak. This side of Laura does not want to face the pain of acknowledging her current reality– that she will never have everlasting love and a perfect future with this man. The idea that absolutely nothing can be salvaged from this relationship except wisdom is too painful for Laura to face head on. Instead, she is trying to persuade her more logical self that there still might be a way to make this relationship work if she got to do it-over again.
“Hang on,” her heart says, “You might still be able to get your ex back and this time you can make it work.” Unfortunately, this is also the heart of someone who is taking more than their share of the blame for the failure of the relationship.
Part 2—Who in your childhood encouraged you to take all the blame?
Most of my clients who tend to take more than their share of the blame for their breakups had a parent who blamed them inappropriately. It can help to realize that part of what is keeping you from seeing the current breakup situation realistically is that it is a repeat of a recurring childhood situation. Ask yourself: Who in my childhood always blamed me when something went wrong?
Part 3—What do you get out of protecting your abusive ex and blaming yourself instead?
We not only blame ourselves out of habit and because of our history, but also because it serves some hidden psychological purpose. In order to move on, It helps to recognize what you are getting out of protecting your ex and putting all the blame on yourself.
This was a hard question for Laura to answer. She finally said:
If it was my fault, I can make it better. I loved the way he made me feel in the beginning. He kept telling me how special I was and that I was so beautiful! That is hard for me to let go of. No other man ever made me feel so confident. If I accept that he is a Narcissist and nothing I do can solve his problems, I have to give up on ever getting him back the way it was before. I realize that whenever I think about him, I only picture him the way he was in the beginning, not when he was abusing me.
Part 4—Write down a true statement next to each belief in Part 1. Make sure it is what your mind tells you is true (even though your heart does not want to believe it).
Here is Laura’s new list:
- It is not my fault that he was abusive. He has a history of being abusive to women.
- There was nothing I could have done that would have changed the outcome.
- He only treats women well in the beginning of the relationship when he wants to seal the deal.
- He will eventually abuse the new woman too.
- There are lots of men who will find me attractive and special in a normal way that does not change into its opposite.
Whenever you find yourself missing your ex or blaming yourself, reread Part 4 over again.
Oppsummert
It can be very hard to heal from narcissistic abuse because we tend to only focus on the good parts. We tell ourselves that we could have done something differently and we imagine that our ex will be giving someone new the perfect, everlasting love that we crave. It takes repeated cold doses of reality to counteract our fantasy that we lost something fantastic and irreplaceable.
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